Thursday, January 13, 2011

Doing the Unbelievable

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I decided to go back to school after my youngest was born. It was something inside of me that always felt…unfinished.

I had over twenty classes to complete what I had started so many years before. My mind told me I couldn’t do it—there was just too much to do—but my soul told me I could.

So I started digging through classes one by one. Studying while babies slept, while teens learned to drive, as children grew into towering stalks.

I took my time, making sure I learned what was being taught, gleaning research that I hoped would be used in the future or even the present.

Math never came easy to me. I used to dream it did when I was a child—when numbers were made of magic. I failed the course—I was defeated.

It was time to quit.

But the fighter in me told me I couldn’t, I had to keep in the battle, even though I was weary and ready for home.

So I fought.

Now I can see it, just beyond the horizon. Waving to me, urging me to keep in the fight, to keep moving forward. The flag—my flag. The one that calls to victory.

And I know it can be won.

(Two and a half more classes to go!!! *squeal*)

What is your fight? Revising, school work, finding awesome writing shoes? 

36 comments:

Summer Ross said...

I'm glad you are so close to your goal! My fight is school work. College kicks my butt with kids sometimes, but I know you understand where I am. Have a wonderful day!

Shari said...

You are so close! I am excited for you. It's a hard road, but you will never be sorry you did it.

Sara B. Larson said...

What a great accomplishment! You can do it!!

Kristina P. said...

Wow, that is great! I don't know what my fight is right now. Hmmmm.

Shannon O'Donnell said...

Go! Fight! Win! You can do it, Carolyn. And isn't wonderful that you're nearly there? I'm so proud o f your tenacity! :-)

Patti said...

Awesome job. I'd love to go back to school, but it is extremely frightening.

Jolene Perry said...

Awesome!
I'm SO glad I finished school, I'm never going back ;)
Best of luck to ya, I now need the perfect writing shoes...

L.T. Elliot said...

2.5 classes! Yay! I'm so excited for you! Keep up the fight. You're nearly there!

roxy said...

Congratulations on your accomplishments! It's so hard to do something so big when you have other people depending on you. Not long and you'll be graduating, Carolyn. Awesome!

Candyland said...

That's so awesome. My fight everyday is writing. I want to be great, but it's not always *there*

Mary Campbell said...

That's so awesome Caroline. You fought well. I still need to tackle finishing school, but I'll wait until all my kids are in school and then I'll see about going back. I hate math too.
Sometimes I have dreams(more like nightmares) where I'm in trouble because I didn't finish an assignment or study for a test and then I wake up and I'm so glad I don't have to worry about that anymore. Hmmm - maybe I'll never go back to school.

February Grace said...

You're amazing, that's all I can say. Absolutely amazing.

Go you!!!

~bru

Terry Stonecrop said...

Fantastic! Keep at it. You'll make it:)

Emy Shin said...

You're almost there! It can definitely be won! Good luck. :)

Lynn said...

That is exciting! I started school a couple years ago but last year they decided the program would no longer be offered in 3 years. Since I knew I could not finish in that time unless I went f/t (impossible being a single parent) I stopped this semester. But, boy, it would have been nice to finally get that degree I dreamed about. I'm happy to hear you are completing yours.

ali said...

Awesome writer shoes? You really do have a thing for shoes, don't you Carolyn?

I am so proud of you and all the hard work you've done. I consider myself lucky to have your example before me.

My fight? I'm not sure. Writing, definitely. It would be so easy to quit, and I'm so good at quitting ... but this time ... this time I want to WIN.

Kimberly said...

Wait, there's such a thing as writing shoes? I want!

Such an encouraging, and inspiring post. I hope to go back to school some day myself!

Vicki Rocho said...

I'm fighting for the same thing as you -- I got my associates degree and met hubbers. Years later, I decided to finish it out only to discover I had to re-do my associates because the school I got it from no longer existed (there's a blog post in that story). I took the last year off to write, but I'll get back to it eventually. At one or two classes a semester it might take forever, but I'll get there.

Susan R. Mills said...

Congrats on being so close! That is exciting. Best of luck finishing with flying colors!

Jennifer Shirk said...

Good for you!! That's awesome!

Right now, I'm trying to fight to fully complete this P90X workout regime. It is TOUGH, but worth the fight.
(I think) LOL

WindyA said...

So happy for you! I almost think when you can see the light at the tunnel is better than actually being done because you KNOW how far you've come - and still how far to go - but you KNOW you can do it! And you can so totally do it!

Katie Mills said...

wow, that is awesome! I never finished my last semester of college. I only had about eight classes left to finish (had a baby mid senior year:) but now I'm in france and trying to finish up from here is very complicated and EXPENSIVE:) It used to really weigh on me but I've let it go in the last couple years and started looking towards the future! I'm still in awe of those who go back to school after a long break- you're my hero!

Melanie Jacobson said...

Again . . . congratulations! This is awesome.

Carolyn Abiad said...

Math...bleh.
Finishing your degree...Amazing! Congratulations on the home stretch!

KarenG said...

I went back a few years ago, just because I felt I should. No real reason to do it or not to do it. I finished and a series of circumstances related to one of my last classes opened doors I would never have expected, literally making my dreams come true. All because I went back to school. Wishing you all the best, that home stretch is very exciting!!!

Sharon K. Mayhew said...

WTGo...You are almost there! I can't imagine it as a parent. My sister just got her BS degree and she has four kids. I don't know how she did it. Congrats on being soooo close. When do you finish?

Medeia Sharif said...

You can do it! We're rooting for you.

THE END in a manuscript evades me, but I reach for that goal.

Elena Solodow said...

My fight right now is getting thru rejections. They suck.

N. R. Williams said...

Koodoos for that! My fight is keeping a positive attitude in the face of stark reality.
Nancy
N. R. Williams, fantasy author

Susan Fields said...

You're almost there - how exciting! I can't even imagine going back to school now that I've been out so long - you must have a lot of determination!

My fight is to finish this current wip and get it out there into query-land. One of these days...

LeishaMaw said...

For the win! Congrats and fight on! That is so awesome. :)

Lynda Young said...

Awesome!! Going back to school takes courage (and hard work).

Elana Johnson said...

Yay, Carolyn! Congrats on being so close!

For me, my biggest fight right now is slow Internet. It's KILLING me.

Jenn Johansson said...

Dude! I love this! It's so awesome and congratulations on being so close! My biggest fight right now is finding the time to get everything done that I need to accomplish... but I think that's an on-going part of motherhood. No? ;)

Shelley Sly said...

Yea!! Go you!! You can do it!!

My fight is keeping my job. I'm usually a quitter. I've had too many jobs in the span of only a few years. My current job is stressful, but I've been holding on since August and plan to keep going.

~Nicole Ducleroir~ said...

You're so close! Congrats!! My fight is definitely, without hesitation, finishing the first draft of my first novel. It challenges me, stymies me, threatens to break me. But like you, I have iron-clad resolve. I will finish, and so will you!