Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Tennis Shoes vs Fat-fudge Filled Goodness


“Hitch your wagon to a star.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

I fell off the wagon. It’s true. I fell off the treadmill/eating foods-good-for-you wagon.

Remember when I had lost weight, fit in my skinny pants and thought I was doing great?

Well, old habits started to sneak back into my life. Like eating chocolate bars, just to make sure they tasted good (Don’t tell me you haven’t done it before. *looking down at floor ashamed* Okay, maybe it’s only me).

But anyway, then I got that nasty cold (now I’m fighting the sinus infection. Curses!) and decided I should lay off the treadmill for a couple of weeks. Bad idea. Why?

Because Midnight cookie eating + No exercise = big bottom girl.

Yes, I gained weight. (And when that really cute skinny girl walked past my house last week, I teared up a little.)

So I’ve rededicated myself. I’m watching what I eat (no more fried cheesecake with fudge filling for me) and I’m back to running my two miles a day. I haven’t lost anything yet, but I’m feeling so much better.

Unfortunately, I have to do the same thing with writing. I sometimes get discouraged because I feel like I’m not a good enough writer or my story line isn’t doing what I want it to - and yes- sometimes I feel like quitting.

So I have to rededicate myself. Block out time to write, not worry about the stories imperfections (yet) and stop comparing myself (which I do way too often – stupid skinny girl, walking past my house, with awesome tan – I am SO adding you into my next book - and you're the bad guy. Mwa ha ha).

But you know what? I always feel better when I am dedicated and working on my goals. Maybe rededicating isn’t as bad as I thought it was. (Still - I’m going to miss taste testing those delicious candy bars when I’m supposed to be writing.)

What do you think helps to rededicate oneself?

21 comments:

Kristina P. said...

I think being able to see evidence of how your habits affect you. Like looking at a picture where you have 5 chins.

DL Hammons said...

I don't call it a rededication as much as a resumption of my original plan. I always plan for slips and detours, they're inevitable, so when they occur I just keep going as before. Don't beat yourself up over it...its all part of the plan. :)

Angie said...

I have to rededicate myself frequently. I go back and read the good things people have said about my writing, and I make myself believe it!

lotusgirl said...

I've just rededicated myself to healthy eating too. It's been a long time coming. So far so good. I'm shunning the chocolate right now.

Elana Johnson said...

I so feel this! I did the treadmill for two weeks, and couldn't yesterday and I already feel worse. Today I'm taking my girl kidlet to the park, so that's something, right? And laundry. Does that count?

Jen said...

Healthy eating and exercise is a tough one!! I need to do it to keep my attitude and spirits up. I find that the less I work out the more I resort back to my favorite foods, which are ALWAYS bad for me. I plan on walking for a little bit tonight.

As far as the writing don't give up, hang in there. Sometimes we get distracted but it always comes back to us, that's the beauty of writing, you never lose it, sometimes you just allow other things to trump it. I have days where I write nothing and criticize everything, it's a vicious circle but it happens, luckily enough this is not one of those weeks! Keep it up!! :)

Shannon O'Donnell said...

Did you steal this post from my top-secret, things-I-hate-about-myself book? You did, didn't you? Maybe we should start a support group, because I am in the same place you are - but you're a bit ahead of me, since I hadn't even climbed onto the wagon yet. :-)

Heidi Ashworth said...

See, I must have chocolate when I am writing a book. Curses. That being said, I think that it is the journey, the effort, the falling off the wagon and getting back on, the *trying*, that matters most. Sure, I'd love to be skinny and save money not to mention, be tan and do all those things that I am "supposed" to do and avoid those things I am "supposed" to avoid--but it's a pretty tall order. We do not fail until we quit trying, right? Meanwhile, I am going to grab a soy/flaxseed chip in hopes it wards off more visions of fat-fudge anythings.

Rachel said...

Chocolate chips. It's not the commitment of an entire candy bar, but still gives you a chocolate fix. I even splurge on the Hershey's Special Dark :) One (small) handfull and I'm good for a whole day! :)

Sara said...

I totally understand - with working out/eating and writing. I have days where I just have to literally drag my behind to the gym. And I have dark, awful days where I seriously wish I COULD quit writing. Or at least trying to get published. Because it can be ROUGH. Hard. Depressing. But I say I wish I "could" because even in my worst hours, I know I can't. It is my ultimate goal and dream. It means to much to me. I may think about it for a few hours on some days, especially after a particularly disheartening rejection, but ultimately I brush myself off, eat some chocolate, go work off the chocolate at the gym and get back to my true love: writing.

You can do it!!!

Sara said...

And that should have been "it means too much to me" - I hate it when I'm typing too fast and don't catch my mistakes! ;-)

Eternally Distracted said...

This morning I am STRUGGLING with my first day back to dedication... after months in the gym I went on holiday (mistake 1), on return I ignored the gym and turned it into a good clothes horse for my washing (mistake 2), then I broke my toe and never went back because I had a great excuse (mistake 3)!!!

Patti said...

Great post. I always struggle with the starting of rededicating myself to anything whether it be eating better, exercising, or writing more, but once I start doing it I feel so good.

Melanie J said...

You would think that after giving birth last week that I would go on a writing hiatus. But in fact, it calms and centers me. Now I just need to find a way to adopt the same attitude toward dieting. "This is calming and centering. You don't want that junk food." Ha.

Jenn Johansson said...

My key to rededicating myself is to not let myself get distracted. If I can't do all the other things I might distract myself with...eventually writing sounds fun again. Once I start, I always enjoy it. It's just getting started that's the hard part.

LisAway said...

Oh, I hear you about the watching what you eat. Since Spencer was born I haven't been losing weight (which means I've been gaining fat, since all the other pregnancy stuff is gone). Dieting to lose weight just doesn't work for me unless I practically starve myself, since I can't see results. Like you, I have to do it for my health first. But it's hard when you don't *see* results. Glad you are at least feeling them!

Kasie West said...

You are awesome. Want to know why? Because you just addressed my two goals at present: Rededicating myself to getting back in my skinny jeans & getting back on schedule with writing. This post totally helped. Thanks for the inspiration.

Jackee said...

I so understand this! I have to rededicate myself fifty times a day to the two things you mentioned. Eventually does it get easier? Maybe? I hope so anyway...

Thanks for stopping by my blog. It was great to "meet" you!

Susan R. Mills said...

I've gained weight too. This winter has been a killer. I think a glimmer of hope helps me to rededicate myself, writing or otherwise.

Danyelle said...

Good luck on your writing goals. Why are habits so hard to make, but so easy to break?

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